{Little Toes}

Sometimes in life it takes God to give you a big "sign" to really appreciate all the amazing things that surround you. For me it has been diagnosed with Lupus.

My hubby has been out of town for a few days and won't be back for a few more..when I first realized he was leaving us for a business trip, panic set it...yes panic...being a single parent even for one day is hard on anyone let alone with my Lupus flairs..you don't know if it will be a good or bad day and I have been so spoiled and blessed to have him always help on my bad days. What was I to do without him if this happened while he was away? We recently moved here so I have met a few people but no one I could just "call" for help...It's hard enough not to feel guilty from my husbands help let alone someone I barely know..

We are day 5 into this single mommyhood and I must say it has been wonderful..my boys have been angels (for the most part) If they see me struggling they play on their own and in the mornings they are extremely patient with me (this is the hardest time of the day for me). Always giving cuddles and hugs..

This time with just mommy is truly a blessing..don't get me wrong I miss my hubby..but I have made it a point to have fun and not focus on the not so important things around..instead focusing on us.

Tonight as we were cuddling to "Alice in Wonderland" my little one put his feet on me and I noticed his little toes..I mean really noticed them...I think he was 1 the last time I really looked and admired his baby feet. Although he is 3 now he still has the cutest chub-o-toes, adorable enough to eat :). 

Those blessings in disguise that have continued to appear when I thought this was a time of despair in my life,God you truly amaze me!

Enjoying my baby's Chub-o-toes,

Flying Seal

{14 ..really!?}

So I am a little frustrated that I now have to go every 2-3 weeks to have blood drawn. I know its a must and could be worse and they need to check my organ functions but every time I get at least 14 tubes of blood drawn...just seems crazy!I keep reminding myself that things aren't so bad, I could have cancer or worse..but man its hard to get that devil out sometimes!

This past week we had family visiting and toured the state. At one store we stopped to shop an older man came up to me and said "smile your beautiful and things could be worse" hmm do I know you? It was like he could see everything I felt..this whole time I thought I was doing well putting my "happy face" for my husbands family but If a stranger noticed otherwise then I must be really showing my negativity...


I came home and received this email:


I am not sure what has been going on with you lately but know I am praying that you find your JOY again soon..Miss your friendly posts and smile..

Love you,

WOW....I have been that awful negative person that I don't want to be..so from today on I am determined no matter how I feel to find my JOY everyday..I hope you find your JOY today too!


I am amazed by God's way of letting me know how much he loves me...sending me these two people one a perfect stranger and one a friend I haven't spoken to in years to remind me how beautiful life truly is no matter what it may give us its what we make out of it..

Finding my JOY,

Flying Seal