{14 ..really!?}

So I am a little frustrated that I now have to go every 2-3 weeks to have blood drawn. I know its a must and could be worse and they need to check my organ functions but every time I get at least 14 tubes of blood drawn...just seems crazy!I keep reminding myself that things aren't so bad, I could have cancer or worse..but man its hard to get that devil out sometimes!

This past week we had family visiting and toured the state. At one store we stopped to shop an older man came up to me and said "smile your beautiful and things could be worse" hmm do I know you? It was like he could see everything I felt..this whole time I thought I was doing well putting my "happy face" for my husbands family but If a stranger noticed otherwise then I must be really showing my negativity...


I came home and received this email:


I am not sure what has been going on with you lately but know I am praying that you find your JOY again soon..Miss your friendly posts and smile..

Love you,

WOW....I have been that awful negative person that I don't want to be..so from today on I am determined no matter how I feel to find my JOY everyday..I hope you find your JOY today too!


I am amazed by God's way of letting me know how much he loves me...sending me these two people one a perfect stranger and one a friend I haven't spoken to in years to remind me how beautiful life truly is no matter what it may give us its what we make out of it..

Finding my JOY,

Flying Seal