Today I got to spend the morning with my youngest. He has not been feeling the best the last few days and to be honest at times it was very hard to deal with my whinny son. I constantly had to remind myself to calm down and this too shall pass. I was doing my "Mommy duties" making sure he had his medicine, covered him on the couch, brought him a drink and played movies. Or was I? Finally this morning I was exhausted being up all night checking on him and when I finally fell sleep he woke up...he cried and whinned some more and by this point I had had enough.
Things turned for the worse when Daddy left to take brother to school and he lost it and I lost it...I left the room for a bit and started to cry.. why was I crying I kept asking myself and then I realized..My baby is sick he wants to be held loved and told things are OK..all I have been doing is caring for his physical needs not his emotional ones..What kind of mom am I? am I loosing sight?...I came back to the room and layed with him on the couch, just loving him, holding him, letting him know his mommy was there. Immediately he held my hand and we both layed there for about 2 hours. The laundry and everything else can wait..because honestly I have been so focused on the wrong things. My babies wont be babies forever so why am I allowing myself to miss out on them so much?
Focused,
Flying Seal
you have wonderful insight... it's so hard to pull away from the daily duties, but they are definitely not the things that truly matter.
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